Petrichor : The scent of rain on dry Earth.

It's been 4 months since I entered UPSI, Universiti Pendidikan Sultan Idris.  I'm doing my major on TESL (Teaching English as the Second Language) and minoring on English Literature which is a must for TESL student.  I thought English wasn't that hard after all but that was so wrong.  Language subjects are always hard because for things you don't need to know during school life, you have to know during Uni life.  People said university is a virtual society, I didn't take this statement seriously at first but ever since I enter university, things are getting harder, like you have to do everything on your own, some lecturers wouldn't guide you for the assignments given, register and find out everything on your own, and to differentiate who is the real friends who will always be there for you.  You might met a lot of friends but remember, time pass and people change, you can't expect people will remain the same as the first you know them, but when you found real friends, cherish them.  Believe me, you'll definitely miss schooling time after you enter university. 

That's for my uni life and now, love life.  My boyfriend and I have been together for 7 months and still going.  I never thought I would met this guy after the last break up.  He is... indescribable with words.  His loves and caring overwhelmed me.  He is always there for me whenever I needed him.  I don't know why, we are so believing in each other.  We don't control each other's social life because he knows almost every of my friends and I know most of his friends too.  We sometimes argue and we won't talk to each other for few hours, he will always be the one who says sorry to me and of course I will also apologize to him.  He always surprise me with good stuffs and always give his best to me.  Even my friends praised him and asked me to appreciate this man.  Of course I will.  Nobody knows what will happen in the future but I can promise one thing, if he doesn't leave me, I wouldn't as well.  

This paragraph will be the main reason I'm sleeping so late today, it's already 4.17am.  Memories. A person who I think, I will never forget.  My ex.  I know I shouldn't blog about him.  Okay, let's be optimistic here.  We were already break up for more than a year, the second year is near, yet I still can't forget him.  He was the guy that I've put all my heart and effort in.  I thought chemistry would happened between us, I thought we would last.  Well I'm not being emotional here but I'm just telling the truth and my feelings.  I blocked him on Facebook, I unfollowed him on Instagram (but he followed me) because I was afraid to see how good is his life without me, although I knew he has a girlf now, whom we used to argue because he was so close with her when we were together,  I can still clearly remember the day after we broke up, he phoned me and told me that I still have a place in his heart but we can't be together, he said he'd wait for me to go to his current living place, well tbh, I believed his words that time, say me stupid but this is a fact, until I knew he got together with that girl, I was so disappointed, really disappointed and hated him.  I threw all the things he gave me, all his photos, his contact number, his everything.  Until now, I followed back him on Instagram and there's no feeling of sad nor disappointment.  He's living his life good and I'm living my life way better than his.  Tomorrow is his birthday, still I won't wish him because it's not needed.  Mr C, best of luck for you and yes, you're an irresponsible guy and I guess until now, you're not forgiven yet.  Say me cheapskate but I will never forget all the things you've done to me and how you hurt me and lied to me.  It's so complicated whenever I think of him, I've already let go of him but not all the memories and I don't know why.  

Blogged about my ex doesn't mean anything.  Okay I LOVE MY BOYFIE AND THAT'S IT!

This marks the end of this post. Ok time to sleep.  Good night and sleep tight :D